DeadHeir's Vampire Journal

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Until You're No More
02:40 Mar 21 2009
Times Read: 666

I expected you to turn your back as I turned mine

But instead, you drove a dagger straight into my spine

Looking back on it now, I feel so blind

The fake love you gave to me, must have clouded my eyes

Because I should've expected this years ago

So many countless months before

And looking back on it now, I know

It would only be fair to settle the score

So consider yourself under siege

With nowhere to go

I'll keep pushing until you're no more

Keep fighting, never quit fighting

Until you're no more

You drove a dagger straight into my spine

Blinded by your fake love

It must have clouded my eyes

But looking back on it now...

I see I've settled the score...

COMMENTS

Firedrake
09:24 Mar 22 2009

-sigh- that sums up the last week of my relationship amazingly acurately

slave4you
08:16 Mar 25 2009

I now have a new favourite journal to read..i dont put many on my list..but yours is..wow, thankyou for sharing with us all hun..truly love them all...cant wait for more

The Day Of Your Death To Me
02:35 Mar 21 2009
Times Read: 667

Like a world collapsing, this all comes down

Everything changes, the moment you turn your back

Mouth is moving, but making no sound

Innermost circle of fear, drowning in silence

Surrounded by darkness, six feet underground

The day of your death

Such a depressing day to die

The 16th of October, the day we started this lie

A day once so bright and full of life

Now I hate it with a passion to fuel the fiercest fire

Is it possible to look forward to yesterday?

Love is a lie, a vicious ploy

Building hope upon false pretenses of happiness

Only to devolve into pain

Divulging the secret of its true form

And ripping your life out of me

I kill you in my dreams

Simply so the pain will stay away

And its always on that day...October 16th

The day of your death...to me

COMMENTS

Firedrake
09:25 Mar 22 2009

aww so sad, why so sad?

Kryptick
05:40 Mar 31 2009

oh FUCK YEAH!

This is AWESOME. It seems like your thinking smile is similar to mine so I'm just nodding my head and thinking "Yup." while reading this.

My favorite part is "is it possible to look forward to yesterday?". That speaks volumes to me. Awesome job.

Flesh From My Soul
02:29 Mar 21 2009
Times Read: 669

You turn your back, I'll turn mine

Maybe then we can stop pretending

Stop living this lie

You don't love me and you never did

Never did and you never will

I should've known, should've seen it coming

When everything felt so damn uphill

But I tried so hard to stay my hand

Put my all into something that could never be

And now I'll pay the price in pain

And in the blood I'll spill

As you cut yourself out of me

And take your pounds of flesh

Straight from my soul

COMMENTS

Firedrake
09:26 Mar 22 2009

yep this is my life, amazingly well written too :)

Kryptick
05:42 Mar 31 2009

You have a really unique way of phrasing things that makes so much sense and makes you think about exactly what you're saying. I love the strong ending.

No One Better
02:25 Mar 21 2009
Times Read: 670

There is no one better

More deserving of my love

Not in my mind, nor in my heart

Strengthen the bond so strong

So nothing, by any design

Will ever tear us apart

I'll hold you close to heart

Forever

Because, for me, I know

There is no one better

COMMENTS

No Savior
03:41 Mar 10 2009
Times Read: 686

Everything is turning so f**king fast

Everything is burning, nothing lasts

I stand in the center of this world

Screaming so loud just to never be heard

I feel the heartbeats of millions as they pass

But despite my pain, my crying out

They walk by me, not hearing a thing as they laugh

Outstretched arms, I tilt my head back

Eyes to the sky, I scream so loud just to never be heard

My eyelids shut as I feel a piercing rain

My mind telling me, I've finally gone insane

My hands fall back down to my sides

I feel a sense of urgency, to erase my life

To all those who might miss me, I apologize

But you should've been there to see the pain in my eyes

To all those who hate me, I hope you go to hell

So I may meet you there, and punish you well

To those who love me, you don't exist...

Thats why I don't feel selfish...

Going through with this...

COMMENTS

vampireheart09
03:51 Mar 10 2009

wow. i can relate to this completely. absolutely amazing! :)

MorbidAngels15
14:07 Mar 15 2009

I can relate to this so much to......in many ways, its great hun :)

xXxReadyMadePoisonxXx
03:37 Mar 17 2009

Wow, if I didn't know better I'd say you were a poet! hahaha....Seriously though hun, you said you were horrible and this is good.... :P

Kryptick
05:47 Mar 31 2009

This is a perfect depiction of pain overwhelming your existence. I love the clarity of thought, and the strong mental picture. I especially love the last 3 lines, they're just gutwrenching and leave you on a note that's just like "....damn"

Bravo.

KMD
23:39 Apr 11 2009

And this has just become my favorite thing ever. It's amazing.

Edge Of A Shattered Dream
04:36 Mar 09 2009
Times Read: 700

Skin-puncturing, pulse-pounding

My blood is dripping, as you're slipping through my veins

Running freely down my skin, pooling gently on the floor

The sharpened edge of a shattered dream, etched across my flesh

Soaked and sterilized, in the essence of the light

Consumed and terrified, by the darkness of the night

I'm so lost, confused, I fear my own shadow

Your words have battered me so badly

Annihilating my soul

I've lost my will to fight, to live

Your apathy and lack of love, will swallow me whole

These scattered thoughts and restless themes

Come spilling out of me

I rest here in my crimson sanctuary, your words haunting me like ghosts without a home

I did this all...

Wrecked myself, with the jagged edge of a shattered dream...

Just so I could be alone...

COMMENTS

MorbidAngels15
22:03 Mar 09 2009

Love it XD

Kryptick
05:49 Mar 31 2009

That's a macabre picture, but at the same time its one I want to look at.

The lines that really pop out to me are the last 2 lines. You use awesome similes and metaphors that tie together really nicely and paint a dark and pain filled picture.

My Fall From Grace
11:19 Mar 01 2009
Times Read: 718

If you were to ask me, I'd say I was fine

If you were to believe me, I'd think you were blind

What I need now, is to feel better inside

Figure myself out

And learn to separate the truth from these lies

What I need now, is to come out of this alive

I know you're a part of this, a part of me

But right now, I need you out of my life

So don't bother with excuses, I already understand

I want you to love me, but I know that you can't

That spot in your life, is taken, by another man

Some might say I'm overacting, or that its all my fault

I'd have a hard time disagreeing, with all honesty to be said

But what I really need now, is to erase this from my head

So I'll be saying goodbye now

Only for awhile, not a lifetime

Because I know someday

You'll finally see, your life is meant for mine